Last night, one of my aunts (da yi po) suffered a stroke.

And she never woke up since then.

She's in ICU now, breathing with the help of a life-support machine. But in the back of our minds, we knew. She probably wasn't going to wake up anymore. I don't know. But one can always hope, no? But the scary thing is that the doctor wanted to turn off the life-support machine this morning, cos he knew that she wasn't going to wake up anymore. But everyone rushed down to the hospital and prevented that from happening. We all needed a little bit more time... A little bit more hope...

I don't wish to attend a second funeral in such a short span of time from the previous funeral. In fact, I don't even wish to attend a funeral. Because it only means that someone has passed away. BUT, in a way, it's a good thing too. As they pass on, they enter a better world, where there would be no suffering and no pain.

I just talked to my cousin. Well, distant cousin by relation, but the cousin whom I'm closest to, cos he's the same age as me. Ahaha.. His grandma and my grandma are sisters, hence the distant cousin thing. Get the relation? Okay, yeah, his grandma is the one who's in hospital now, the one who got stroke. And he told me that the doctor said there's 0% AKA... no more hope. Sigh. Why why whyyyyyyyy...? -.-

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4 papers down, 2 more to go. 24 hours a day is not enough. I need more time. Sigh. Chemistry paper tomorrow and Math paper on friday. I can just see the U grade for my Math paper la... Gut feeling. Somehow, I don't feel like I'm gonna make it for Math... I never did anyway...

Oh gosh, I am SO pessimistic nowadays. Too many depressing things happening. =( I'm gonna go study now. Ciao.